Hey hey! Number 2 is up, by the way! (So is Number 3)

I'm inviting you into my personal life. The days and life of an Artist (and my other facets) - I'm looking forward to this journey in meeting new people and making new virtual (and in-person) connections!

For now, I'm showcasing different Paint Demos, my Digital Work and processes, how I brainstorm and the different connections I make.

Let's go!

You'll know when you've left a challenging point of your life by how much compassion you have towards yourself and obviously, others. When you aren't able to shine your light and you're bullying others around you, it's not cool. But the issue I have with everyone - Bully or the Bullied - if you are NOT yourself, I tend to get riled up lol. BE YOU BE YOU BE YOU! All day. Truly be you and you won't need to behave in such a way. Be compassionate.

It's far too common to passively "virtue signal" (I hate that term, I promise) as a cloaked means of running from the true nature, rather than take the ugly, make amends with it and learn to redirect its influence into something "benefic" or useful.

Let's use a common scenario in the "Spiritual," "Coach," "Self Development," market - how a person becomes "devoted" to changing their own lives:

A person is searching for meaning (their purpose, who they are, etc), after noticing a void on the inside. Maybe they used to quantify meaning to certain things: materialism, relationships, status, fame, etc. So, they're led to get to the root of the dysfunctional thinking (either through spirituality or psychology), but in the process, they grasp a concept or a half-formed idea and then denounce those who they assume have the same dysfunction, ideology, or issue as them. They think that now they they've conceptualized a thing, that they've gotten through it. There's half baked ideas comprehended but not applied and exercised to bring the result in their own lives.

Perhaps, after digging through their obsession with financial gain, they COULD find that they may have a love for luxury and the desire for it isn't indicative of greed, obsession with money, or status, etc. Luxury is subjective - but the traces of their old self and their assumptions of another person brings this aversion to only react by "virtue signaling." Common projection. The healing was never done.

​In another case with a "love" obsession: They COULD find that their obsession with love provides a lesson on relationships (self, inter-personal, and business) or escapism. All of which, the seemingly ugly can be transmuted into something beneficial. Create an experience where all the things within you are "ugly" are used to serve the populace. The answers are within.

Now while they may mask the issue through conceptualizing the dysfunction, the misplaced energy still shows up in the competitive nature to be seen, praised, and validated.

In truth...

Nothing has been reconciled.

Why: because you're not the only person in the fucking universe and your perspective, concept, or idea of a thing isn't law. Secondly, your hyper-critical denouncing of the next person shows your lack of compassion and empathy.

This applies to me, too: Be open to the unknowable and be slow to projection without careful self analysis.

True healing shows up in a much wholistic way. It shows in a change of personality as well. The new You holds no hyper-criticism towards the next person. And keep in mind, hyper-criticism isn't always overt...it can be passive.

Know that if you aren't truly empathetic and compassionate towards yourself and those who may be struggling, you haven't healed yet. You can't teach compassion or empathy. The expressions can be taught..

But it's a state of Being. You can't teach that.

Spending exhaustive amounts of your time in the High lands of Height (the intellect) increases the risk of freezing from the high altitude / elevation.

The journey goes: Acknowledgement, Excavation, Emotion, Acceptance, and Exit. That sums up the Experience. The end result: Transformation: Knowledge, Wisdom, and Understanding.

The Journey isn't just a concept. It isn't just a theory - it is an experience.

When you polarize life and seek to separate the good and bad, while trying to profess your devotion to the Good and ignore (suppress) the Bad, you'll just end up like one of those people who are expert intellectual masturbators.

Be Yourself.

As temporary as this incarnation is on Earth, why not allow yourself to enjoy it in the fullness of You? You've been given the tools to do so. You'd toss that up to pretend that you're so insignificant in the macrocosm that you're unworthy of a great life? It doesn't look becoming to love yourself?

It looks becoming to present as meek and mild or loud and charismatic when that isn't truly who you are on the inside?

It makes you more desirable to to play into a persona?

Stop striving for the personality that the virtue expresses itself in and become the virtue. Becoming is the Destination - not playing the Role.

Listen to the Latest Episode

Let’s talk about it.

I’ve been a Britney fan since the Oops era. I liked BOMT, but it was the Oops album era that solidified my liking of her.

The self titled album is where I really started digging her. In the Zone, Black Out, Circus, Femme Fatale, and Glory were my jams. I still wish I could go back in time and go to the Circus tour 😔.

Okay, the documentary

Firstly: a large portion of the documentary was not surprising. But a few things about the Entertainment Industry made me a little nauseous.

Before I even get into that, the difference in how mental health is prioritized is much different than how stigmatized it was then. I’m grateful we’re taking mental health much more serious.

The obsession with Britney’s sexuality started in her youth. Quite frankly, asking children if they have boyfriends or girlfriends is a bit too much. Let children be children to play and exist in wonder.

Asking her about her virginity - things like that, without ever voluntarily providing that information upfront is a bit weird to me. Times were so different. Ask those questions now and watch you get dragged for days.

The one Paparazzi dude just..irked me and because I remember the hell the paparazzi put many famous people through, I just didn’t want to trust anything he said, out of spite lmao.

All I can say is I empathize with the fans and with Britney if according to court documents she really wants her father to not be her conservator. But sheesh, it was an interesting watch. It wasn’t bad. It provided me more information:

The family feud episode pissed me off.
The Diane Sawyer interview where the First Lady of Maryland at the time said she’d shoot Britney because of her “influence over young girls”

I’m telling you, times were so different then.

I dropped a podcast and video about the documentary you can check out.

​let me know what you think in the comments.

There are some super self absorbed, entitled, flashy, arrogant, people in the world - who bother no one, but they're offensive to you...

​Let me teach you how to Humble them...this will help them "come back down to earth."

Trust me, I get it.

Yes, it’s Aquarius season.

It makes a little sense to highlight all of our quirkiness, no?

I dislike stereotypical Aquarian talk though. The “Alien” “weird” etc. There’s so much more to Aquarius than the same ol same ol. Despite the misconceptions about their “coldness,” or super-analytical tendencies that make them appear emotionally unavailable. The last thing they are, is emotionally unavailable.

You just can’t come to them all willy-nilly expecting emotional reactions that match yours. It sends people ablaze when Aquarians don’t give the reaction people want (happens to me too - Mercury in Aquarius).

Or when they challenge traditional concepts: “Karma” - I revel inside. To watch the ghastly reactions when they say things like: “God is a child” lmao.

I love you, I promise.

Some light changes to the brand were made. Things that encompasses OUR humanity were added to the Podcast cover art, for instance. I dislike the overkill of Coach-stagram and Self Development.

​So, I’m deviating from that for the moment and coming back with random things. Isn’t it beautiful to be multifaceted?

Remember to Smile today.

Welcome to the Gregorian New Year of 2021. I've always felt the New Year for me was when Spring started. It made sense. "New Life" springing forth - all of the green starting to sprout up - I've always associated Spring with the New Year - and this was before I entered the different spiritual and intellectual "Collectives." 

2020 was a great year. I've evolved Mentally, Emotionally, Spiritually, and Physically. My body loves me.

Lately, I've decided to further explore Gentleness, Coolness, and Calm in relation to establishing new habits. There's groups that encourage aggressive internal conquest: "Killing" "Slaying" "Destroying" the internal impediments to growth - usually, Fear.

However, in the lane of establishing new habits, I've found that alternative ways are equally as effective. Through first exploring the "Why" behind the pilgrimage to new Behavior, and laying any impediments to rest by addressing the root cause of the blockage to begin with. All of this being done in gentleness. Laying the defense mechanism associated with the memory to rest and Surrendering to what you know is right. This eliminates the need to fight your way through to new behaviors. This eliminates having to ignore your emotions. It's a bit more wholistic in approach than taking the aggressive approach to developing new habits that could potentially be forms of escapism if the Humanity of a person is not addressed.

This can be easy. It may not be. But I won't speak in absolutes to your Healing. It's extremely personal.

Many people use cartoons and analogies of Warriors. Focusing on War and Battle. Warriors work is 90% Character Development and 10% fighting techniques. They're never the aggressor, either. Who's telling You how to navigate your catacombs in falsehoods? Who's telling you to take up Weaponry and carelessly slice at yourself, rendering you worse than where you were? Be kind to yourself. Practice Breath-work in all that you do and watch the way that the world changes before your eyes. Experience new life for yourself. 

This new Podcast episode speaks to this.

Have a listen.