Today my parents laid our German Shepard, Champ, to rest.
He was going on 16 years. Very kind Shepherd. Loved attention.
Whenever I approached the gate to wait for my parents to come to the door, he’d run the corner barking until he saw it was me. Then he’d lower his ears as if ashamed for barking, jump on the gate “requesting” touches from me. Eventually when I got to the backyard, he’d stay close by for his petting. And don’t let him in the house and pet him, because he’s never going to leave you alone. Very kind. Never caused issues. (He made me think of my other favorite dog, Lucky. I wish I had photos of him. I’m sure my parents do.
He was the dog that was genuinely my protector - especially during the spanking era lmao. Saved me from the belt a couple of times. That’s something I value from dogs. Their protective nature.)
By the time I arrived, he was already put to rest in the backyard. So I went to take a look at him. Yes, to see something once so lively and vibrant no longer present in that body, puts you in your emotions. In my case, I felt happiness for him. Genuinely.
When they’re in pain - as Champ was, who struggled to walk after his hips and legs grew weak - then they’ve earned their way out. He definitely needed to be free from that suffering. To exit that heavy worn body is a gift.
I’ve explained in my podcast that death is one thing I’m at peace with - it doesn’t suggest I don’t mourn, but Death doesn’t paralyze me with fear. To see a dead body doesn’t grip me with fear. Sadness, yes; but the fear of death doesn’t belong to me.
Although I love cats, Dogs, and their expressions of their love for you wins me over every time. You see it in their eyes. The death of a dog hits different. The death of Cats, to me, generate the reply: “You’ll be back, Ace. I’ll see you again soon.”
Always a slight nod to cats who pass on. I know they’re always here and they’ll just come back to you. Don’t ask me where that comes from.
Dogs are more expressive of their love. Now, Cats express it - my tortieshell, Amenti is very expressive. She’s a cuddler - she’ll lay across your chest, under your arm, and in your lap. Her communication is clear in that she has affection for you and wants to lay with you. You’ll know. She’ll tell you really quick. And once you lay down she’s coming. She’ll stand on your chest for a second, find a spot, and lay there. Very social feline.
It’s funny though - in my own living quarters, female animals work so well with me - but males, not so much. We just don’t mesh. But female animals (cats and dogs) are extremely obedient and protective.
To be free from your suffering is what I wanted for you - and you got it. It’s going to be weird not seeing or hearing you, but I know for certain that you’re solid now.
Hey, Lover Muffin.
Welcome to the bonfire. The space of Authenticity.